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Pushing to the Limits

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happy and depressed,
Wednesday, September 17, 2008 @ 9/17/2008 05:08:00 PM

i shall talk about why am i depressed,
maybe it's the stress,it's the expectations,or it is friends,
not really feeling good, especially when there is so much pressure,
so much expectations of myself whereby i know God would expect from me as well,
friends hiding things when we promise we will be an army to face the war infront of us,
but it just so that something well wrong,
just felt that i'm losing relationships,
Graceke said that something mega is coming and there has been prophecy over it and all and i do really think so as well, and Grace said that we might lose things because God want us to focus or He needs us only for bigger matters, and i also think i am going to lose things as well especially relationships, first was person O and we havent really been talking and so on, no more bus rides, no more teasing from him , no more fun, now is my bestie, person D, she hasnt been talking to me as well, no more girl talk no more fun and she like avoiding and ignoring me, same "hints" displayed when i felt person O was going to be taken away..

i really dunno who will be next, now i need someone to lean on to since i dun have both person O and D, really miss them, i cant afford to lose them but i'll trust in God,

that's why i say i'm happy as well, God has been really awesome, Jesus too, Holy Spirit as well, ,
everytime i am at the verge of tears, they just brought me back and started revealing scriptures that i needed to read and making smile, i guess they are the ones i can lean on to.. until the mega thing comes... (:

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